God, I left my cheerful soul and all my good moods back there in the Caribbean Islands, in September. I slept and woke the time my body demanded, had my meals done anytime, anywhere, by the shore or in a fancy restaurant. I saw and was seen by beautiful, handsome people. Watched teenagers sitcoms I haven´t seen for years…! Listened to music. Sang. Danced. Read. Breathed fresh air. Bought an expensive purse. Went shopping at friday afternoon, just like a schoolgirl. Had one entire lasagna for supper. God, I was alive back then. Even though I was alone. Now, try to convince me I really need you, f#%&ing bastard!